picture by maryam
it hurts my head, makes the swirls go round and round
my head on violent and precarious axises,
makes my head go big in sudden realizations of fucked up beginnings and fucked over endings.
sometimes i don't know what i feel,
if everything is just jumbled up and sawed off wires
fizzing loudly in my mind in an almost deafening noise.
i had an epiphany today.
it was not as revealing or otherwise new to me as most epiphanies should be.
i don't believe it was.
it was weird, nonetheless,
the way i felt like i couldn't breathe for a few seconds,
felt like i was going to pass out
and seep into the cracks in the sidewalk.
who said i couldn't be melodramatic?
